I like lists. They help me keep things in order.
Though my lists are rarely in any specific order and can be completed in any manner.
1. Read as many books as possible.
(Definitely the one I have to finish before going off to Hampshire and preferably more Chuck Palahniuk books, since Haunted was so wonderful in my opinion. I would like to re-read The Inferno and finish War and Peace but those aren’t musts at this point)
2. Get a summer job/internship/volunteer position.
(Because I’m already bored beyond belief sitting here in my room and I need something else to do for the month of July. It’s impossible to do anything without money and money is definitely not something I am in possession of. I can’t even spend the day at the library without bus fare. At this point, I’m keeping my fingers crossed for a McDonald’s job. I should be so lucky.)
3. Work on my novel.
(Yes, I have the bare bones of a novel and it’s decent, premise wise, but there are parts of it that need to be completely overhauled and parts that need to be added and I’m sure there are parts that need to be cremated.)
4. Retrieve my artistic talent.
(Because it seems to me that I lost it. I haven’t drawn anything decent in about a week, maybe two weeks and I haven’t written anything of note in months.)
5. Write a handwritten letter to someone.
(I have an idea of who but I don’t think I have the moxie so if not that person, than someone else will probably receive a handwritten letter from me. I think actually writing things is a lost art and it’ll help keep my handwriting is readable condition.)
6. Lose weight.
(Isn’t this one everyone’s to-do list? But I am seriously overweight and pretty disgusting in my opinion, so it would be nice to not look, you know, so awful.)
7. Get some self-esteem.
(I have no hope for this last one, but whatever. Might as well put it on here to remind myself that self-esteem or at least a smidgen is needed to function.)
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Knock Me Out Again.
I need friends who wake up when I do and haven't just fallen asleep 5 hours ago (it's 10 AM where I am).
I am officially out of high school and already bored out of my mind. I don't particularly want to be writing more 8-10 page papers of bullshit, but I feel like I've lost my artisitc capabilities and therefore, can't do anything "worthwhile" except read, eat, listen to music, and watch television.
I believe we're supposed to leave in the evening to meet up with my godmother. I hope she leaves the vodka at home. She's supposedly supposed to have cash for me since graduating warrants cash prizes. Oddly enough, I've been able to live on little to no cash since I've been fired from my last job. Family members will slip me anywhere from $5 to $20 (mostly mum slips me money) and I've been doing well without it, probably because I haven't been leaving the house. I do need money to eat, since we rarely have too much in the house to consume. I should eat less though.
I am in a bad mood already and I think this has something to do with a certain someone's new found appareciation for the internet... that and the weed smell that my mother has allowed to no permeate through my room via the open bedroom door. With the internet thing, I don't MIND him being on the internet. I do enjoy reading his shit immensely. I think it's the twitter thing that bugs me. I can't quite explain it. I think he hates me. A lot. But to hate someone, you would have to fixate and that's not it either. I think he just doesn't give a fuck, has already forgotten me and that hurts even more. Whatever, fuck it. I'll learn to cope.
Oh, time zones. They always leave me alove.
(I am depressed again).
I am officially out of high school and already bored out of my mind. I don't particularly want to be writing more 8-10 page papers of bullshit, but I feel like I've lost my artisitc capabilities and therefore, can't do anything "worthwhile" except read, eat, listen to music, and watch television.
I believe we're supposed to leave in the evening to meet up with my godmother. I hope she leaves the vodka at home. She's supposedly supposed to have cash for me since graduating warrants cash prizes. Oddly enough, I've been able to live on little to no cash since I've been fired from my last job. Family members will slip me anywhere from $5 to $20 (mostly mum slips me money) and I've been doing well without it, probably because I haven't been leaving the house. I do need money to eat, since we rarely have too much in the house to consume. I should eat less though.
I am in a bad mood already and I think this has something to do with a certain someone's new found appareciation for the internet... that and the weed smell that my mother has allowed to no permeate through my room via the open bedroom door. With the internet thing, I don't MIND him being on the internet. I do enjoy reading his shit immensely. I think it's the twitter thing that bugs me. I can't quite explain it. I think he hates me. A lot. But to hate someone, you would have to fixate and that's not it either. I think he just doesn't give a fuck, has already forgotten me and that hurts even more. Whatever, fuck it. I'll learn to cope.
Oh, time zones. They always leave me alove.
(I am depressed again).
Friday, June 19, 2009
Breathless and Disconnected.
I haven't updated this in what seems like ages.
Today was the first of two graduations. Yes, I have two. Yes, I don't like the system much either. This one was the high school one and it was short, which I liked. It feels nice to get my diploma.
So close to leaving this hell hole of a high school, I can fucking taste that shit.
My grandma is staying over at our house and we can really only take her in doses. She has this incredibly slow, pretentious way of talking which could make the most well-adjusted person rip their hair out and go insane and she never seems to say anything worth while. I guess it's because she's retired. I dunno. It's just getting hard and she's not leaving until Tuesday.
I'm reading "Haunted" by Chuck Palahniuk and I adore it muchly.
Tomorrow, I get the best graduation gift a spooky kid could ever wish for and it's prom. Ha. Let's see how that one goes.
I should take my make up off and make a sandwich of some kind.
Cheers.
Today was the first of two graduations. Yes, I have two. Yes, I don't like the system much either. This one was the high school one and it was short, which I liked. It feels nice to get my diploma.
So close to leaving this hell hole of a high school, I can fucking taste that shit.
My grandma is staying over at our house and we can really only take her in doses. She has this incredibly slow, pretentious way of talking which could make the most well-adjusted person rip their hair out and go insane and she never seems to say anything worth while. I guess it's because she's retired. I dunno. It's just getting hard and she's not leaving until Tuesday.
I'm reading "Haunted" by Chuck Palahniuk and I adore it muchly.
Tomorrow, I get the best graduation gift a spooky kid could ever wish for and it's prom. Ha. Let's see how that one goes.
I should take my make up off and make a sandwich of some kind.
Cheers.
Friday, June 5, 2009
The Promise Keeper.
the time warp tutorial a.k.a. proof that me and miss d need better things to do with our lives:
on a side note, miss d totally got me addicted to tUB rING.
"zoo hypothesis", the album of theirs that i'm currently addicted to, is amazing in the way that it manages to be eclectic without making you feel angry that it won't pick a single genre and stick with it. it jumps from sound to sound but not in a schizophrenic way. they're definitely doing something new or at least something that hasn't been done this well before.
ha, i got her addicted to schoolyard heroes, though, so it's a fair trade. if you're not listening to both of these bands, get with the motherfucking program.
-cyanide.
on a side note, miss d totally got me addicted to tUB rING.
"zoo hypothesis", the album of theirs that i'm currently addicted to, is amazing in the way that it manages to be eclectic without making you feel angry that it won't pick a single genre and stick with it. it jumps from sound to sound but not in a schizophrenic way. they're definitely doing something new or at least something that hasn't been done this well before.
ha, i got her addicted to schoolyard heroes, though, so it's a fair trade. if you're not listening to both of these bands, get with the motherfucking program.
-cyanide.
We Are The Righteous.
So much has happened, holy shit.
Last weekend, Miss Delirium returned to my part of the graveyard and together, we decided to take the Spring 2009 Zombie Crawl by storm. The Crawl, which took place in Williamsburg, Brooklyn, was super fun, though I have to say, the one in October made more of an impact on the passerby, since we crawled through Union Square (which is always filled with people, not the hordes of the undead) and having 100+ zombies storm Whole Foods is definitely a sight to see. But it was super fun being with Miss D and we were definitely some of the coolest looking zombies. So cool in fact that people just wouldn't stop taking pictures. I think it helped that I had a fake brain and Miss D was nomming on a fake hand. We take our zombie roles very seriously.
The next day, Miss D and I chilled around my house, small as it, and dressed up once again as Creature Feature with me as Curtis and she as Erik. There are so many things wrong with this, mainly the fact that I'm 5'0" and Curtis is 6'3" (fifteen inch different, holy fuck) but I have the pinstripe pants and she has the striped shirt. Also, Miss D says that she's used to never smiling and hating everything but tomatoes and I'm used to being the fearless leader, so that's how we roll. This time around, I tried the sideburns on for size, using black cream make-up and a stippling sponge (hooray for having an endless supply of Halloween make-up!), and a lot of people have thought it to look convincing. It is WAYYYYY cheaper doing that than buying fake sideburns- black cream make-up from Walgreens was $1 around Halloween and a stippling sponge was $2, so if you're looking to give yourself some epic facial hair, I would highly recommend that method.
Dressed as Curtis and Erik, we took some videos, though only one made it onto youtube (I will put it up on the blog later, I'm currently updating this from school), which is our tutorial of how to do The Time Warp. Definitely must see TV. Then we watched Evil Dead and Evil Dead II: Dead By Dawn and had a very good laugh while doing so.
Yesterday (Thursday) was the national award ceremony for The Scholastic Art and Writing Awards. I had won a silver medal for my poetry on the national scale, which means I'm a better poet than most of the teens in the country. Ha. Beat that. It took place at Carnegie Hall and it was a really awesome ceremony. I was proud to be a part of it and my mom was extremely proud of me as well.
-cyanide.
Last weekend, Miss Delirium returned to my part of the graveyard and together, we decided to take the Spring 2009 Zombie Crawl by storm. The Crawl, which took place in Williamsburg, Brooklyn, was super fun, though I have to say, the one in October made more of an impact on the passerby, since we crawled through Union Square (which is always filled with people, not the hordes of the undead) and having 100+ zombies storm Whole Foods is definitely a sight to see. But it was super fun being with Miss D and we were definitely some of the coolest looking zombies. So cool in fact that people just wouldn't stop taking pictures. I think it helped that I had a fake brain and Miss D was nomming on a fake hand. We take our zombie roles very seriously.
The next day, Miss D and I chilled around my house, small as it, and dressed up once again as Creature Feature with me as Curtis and she as Erik. There are so many things wrong with this, mainly the fact that I'm 5'0" and Curtis is 6'3" (fifteen inch different, holy fuck) but I have the pinstripe pants and she has the striped shirt. Also, Miss D says that she's used to never smiling and hating everything but tomatoes and I'm used to being the fearless leader, so that's how we roll. This time around, I tried the sideburns on for size, using black cream make-up and a stippling sponge (hooray for having an endless supply of Halloween make-up!), and a lot of people have thought it to look convincing. It is WAYYYYY cheaper doing that than buying fake sideburns- black cream make-up from Walgreens was $1 around Halloween and a stippling sponge was $2, so if you're looking to give yourself some epic facial hair, I would highly recommend that method.
Dressed as Curtis and Erik, we took some videos, though only one made it onto youtube (I will put it up on the blog later, I'm currently updating this from school), which is our tutorial of how to do The Time Warp. Definitely must see TV. Then we watched Evil Dead and Evil Dead II: Dead By Dawn and had a very good laugh while doing so.
Yesterday (Thursday) was the national award ceremony for The Scholastic Art and Writing Awards. I had won a silver medal for my poetry on the national scale, which means I'm a better poet than most of the teens in the country. Ha. Beat that. It took place at Carnegie Hall and it was a really awesome ceremony. I was proud to be a part of it and my mom was extremely proud of me as well.
-cyanide.
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