Knock Me Out Again.

I need friends who wake up when I do and haven't just fallen asleep 5 hours ago (it's 10 AM where I am).

I am officially out of high school and already bored out of my mind. I don't particularly want to be writing more 8-10 page papers of bullshit, but I feel like I've lost my artisitc capabilities and therefore, can't do anything "worthwhile" except read, eat, listen to music, and watch television.

I believe we're supposed to leave in the evening to meet up with my godmother. I hope she leaves the vodka at home. She's supposedly supposed to have cash for me since graduating warrants cash prizes. Oddly enough, I've been able to live on little to no cash since I've been fired from my last job. Family members will slip me anywhere from $5 to $20 (mostly mum slips me money) and I've been doing well without it, probably because I haven't been leaving the house. I do need money to eat, since we rarely have too much in the house to consume. I should eat less though.

I am in a bad mood already and I think this has something to do with a certain someone's new found appareciation for the internet... that and the weed smell that my mother has allowed to no permeate through my room via the open bedroom door. With the internet thing, I don't MIND him being on the internet. I do enjoy reading his shit immensely. I think it's the twitter thing that bugs me. I can't quite explain it. I think he hates me. A lot. But to hate someone, you would have to fixate and that's not it either. I think he just doesn't give a fuck, has already forgotten me and that hurts even more. Whatever, fuck it. I'll learn to cope.

Oh, time zones. They always leave me alove.
(I am depressed again).